Every night at 2 a.m.........

I wonder "why can't he lay next to me?"..


we layed there....
not always touching
but always there

i heard you
breathing
i touched you

the room was warm
the air from the window...
was chilled

i could hear the fan
rocking back and forth
as fast as it could go

you didn't know
but i saw you
my eyes gazed over you
your beautiful....
everything

i whispered to you...

i told you everything would be ok
i'd fix everything
i'll protect you
you're my beautiful....
my everything

i brushed my hand across your face
i felt so lucky
so undeserving

of this perfect person
or at least...
the person who i see perfectly
i had trouble believing

i wanted to stay there forever..
make everything ok
protect you
keep you

i knew i had to leave
i didn't want to cry

that last time...
i took it all in
i felt you... i listened
i closed my eyes to remember your body
i gave you my everything

i have thought
those movies.. those stories
about love
don't come close to this

my heart reaches for you
it stretches over states
and lakes
and mountains

it stretches through rain
and lightning
and wind...
and tears

it reaches for you
and it surrounds you
and it holds you...
protects you

so when you go out
don't be afraid
my heart is shielding you

and my love for you
is stronger than any bullet
any word
any stare

i'm coming for you.