I might not be

the right one....
this might not be
the right time...



one more week of class.... just one.
i can do that.. i can do that

then i move in with tara... and the summer begins
not to mention my folks will be here in 2 weeks

summertime here is fuckin beautiful... i just want to be outside the entire time... not sitting in o-chem trying to kill myself with my ballpoint pen..... i've yet to be successful

surprisingly... i am enjoying the whole being single thing.... I believe this might be the first time since before i left for school where i have been completely single, and not minded one bit. dating is quite the hassle... so i've found myself deciding against accepting dates... just not up for putting the effort into anything.

i's bein lazy.

i haven't done laundry in approximately a month and a half... not my longest record.. but i've rediscovered how much it sucks to not have all of your clothes clean.... at least livin with tara i'll have a washer and dryer 10 feet away from me.......in a perfect world, that would mean i'd actually do laundry....

obviously its not a perfect world.....

i miss all of my friends from back home.....kristin and sb and grace especially.... bummer.
wish they'd visit me this summer....

shower time.... nice long super awesome nakeytime shower......yesssssssss

you're jealous.

stresssssed

hey, i'm stressed out.

i have a plant physiology exam tomorrow morning... which isn't very hard in theory, but for some reason i haven't been putting any time into the class whatsoever... ugh.

fuuuck... i'm tired.

and i think i'm getting sick.

i'm so ready for the summer it isn't even close to funny.... i'm gonna explode if it doesn't hurry the fuck up.

zippos will always be classy

I just took a sweet ass O-Chem test.... and lemme tell you, it sucked my nuts...
hope they were nice n tender.....

ok that was gross.

so we went back to olympia on sunday... and for some UNGODLY reason we have to go back again.... fuck this.. olympia sucks.
wierd ass people there.

cinco de mayo was yesterday... hope y'all had a good one. mine started off with us all driving back from olympia, all pissed. then i got here and spencer came over and we started drinking and such, ya know, for the festivities. then i passed out hardcore for 4 hours because i didn't sleep a flippin wink the night before. after my supernap i met up with my friends at la puerta, which by the way was the most homosexual restaurant i have ever been to, and then we went and partied at gills house. well, THEY partied, i studied o-chem... winner.

so after watching my drunk friends make fools of themselves, i came back here and studied some more and passed out.

i'm sure you're SUPER jealous.

oh, and i bought a zippo.
it's classy.
and blue.

over.

so me and mike just broke it off... for good... forever...

seriously just 10 minutes ago..

i'm pretty fuckin tore up over it...nowhere near where i was with trent... i think i shielded myself from that one, but still feeling really bad about it.

i guess that since i met mike while i was still dating trent, a little part of me still held on to him as the last thing i had that reminded me of my first love....so in part there are two doors closing right now, and it really sucks.

i just really wish i could be home to lay next to my little brother and cuddle him.... ya know, remind myself how much love i still have for someone....that little kid will always have more of my heart than any stupid gay boy could ever dream of... and i really miss him more than ever right now.

well hey, this is a new beginning i suppose... i cut my hair short, and i'm completely done with the mike situation.. not that it's a happy new beginning (besides the hair, which is sexy if i do say so myself)... but it's a beginning none the less.

i'm really tired...damn i'm tired.

i'm just so tired.

drizunk.

so i'm sittin here with my ex-boyfriend... drunk... watchin some random tv...

this weekend camping was intense!!! I had a really good time and i ended up meeting some new people that were pretty tight..

we're going back this weekend for reasons undisclosed..... and hopefully that's a ton of fun.. ;)

school is hard this week... but at least i feel relaxed right now. yay!

i love errryone

camping

i'm going camping for the weekend... and i'm super flippin stoked about it.

you're all jealous.

so crazy jealous you are probably pulling your hair out.

have a good weekend bitches.

Tired

dude.. so i'm fuckin deliriously tired right now... i don't even know why i am awake..there isn't even school today (thank God for private school schedules)

last night was fuckin weird as hell.... i attempted to bring two different circles of friends together for a bonfire at the beach... I THOUGHT that since they're both really good groups of my friends, that they would happen to have something in common and like each other....I probably couldn't have been any more incorrect... eh, whatever.. my clothes smell like campfire and i fuckin love that smell...

so it was all worth it.

i'm pretty sure i have something due tomorrow in o-chem.... but i don't really care that much.. i should probably start caring a little bit more.

mmmmmmm... i've been to the gym the last two days.. and i'm going today...
probably the best idea i've ever had...i feel so fuckin good

i swear a lot.
maybe i should stop that junk.

maybe later.

lata chumps

Fuck

I'm tired as all hell right now... physically and emotionally.

physically: I haven't really been sleeping lately... I have a weird feeling that it is some sort of signal with something bigger that is wrong with me... but after the hernia situation a month ago, I'm not too keen on going to the doctor...
plus.. just got back from the gym.. and i'm embarrassed to say it's been a bit since I've been there...after trent i sort of freaked out about being alone... and then started working out again this summer and beginning of this year... but i trailed off... I really forgot how much going to the gym makes ME happy... i'm searching for all of those things again

emotionally: the whole mike thing... is REALLY started to make me want to shoot myself in the head. We didn't really start off on the right foot...any of the times we've tried to be together... I think I'm just to the point at which I put it all in his hands and just roll with whatever that means.
aaaaand... I miss my little brothers and EVEN my sister... kinda weird how close we all got.


I'm really just exhausted...but working out has put me in a better mood for the day...thankfully


ps.. i fuckin love my phone.

-danny

Year

shit it's been a long time since i've written in this thing..
so much has happened over the year, and if i even tried to get it all written down here, i'd be quite the emotional mess.. ha

but my friends know what's up... and if it wasn't for them, i don't know where i'd be right now.
damn they're great kids.

right about now i'm sittin in my room waiting for addiction studies.... the three hour HELL of a class..
but it's only once a week :)

I kinda am really missing the person I used to be...... I haven't changed drastically or anything... but back when I was with trent i really liked who i was... hell, i really liked who i was before him too...

but i'm getting back to that guy...i just needed some time to recover and re-evaluate what i want to do with my life.

WHICH AS OF NOW.. includes:

-Look more into my neuroendocrinology fellowship this summer... maybe i'll really like it.. and change my field of study
-Volunteer more!!! shit, i need to get on this
-Work hard on the current career at Pacific Northwest Research Institute... i'm really learning a lot, and gaining a shit ton of experience
-STOP focusing so much on trying to find another trent... life will figure itself out
-Be a good friend, always..
-Make myself happy... everything else will fall into place


i miss my little brother... a lot...

and.. scene! (i gotta get to class)