over.

so me and mike just broke it off... for good... forever...

seriously just 10 minutes ago..

i'm pretty fuckin tore up over it...nowhere near where i was with trent... i think i shielded myself from that one, but still feeling really bad about it.

i guess that since i met mike while i was still dating trent, a little part of me still held on to him as the last thing i had that reminded me of my first love....so in part there are two doors closing right now, and it really sucks.

i just really wish i could be home to lay next to my little brother and cuddle him.... ya know, remind myself how much love i still have for someone....that little kid will always have more of my heart than any stupid gay boy could ever dream of... and i really miss him more than ever right now.

well hey, this is a new beginning i suppose... i cut my hair short, and i'm completely done with the mike situation.. not that it's a happy new beginning (besides the hair, which is sexy if i do say so myself)... but it's a beginning none the less.

i'm really tired...damn i'm tired.

i'm just so tired.