Fuck

I'm tired as all hell right now... physically and emotionally.

physically: I haven't really been sleeping lately... I have a weird feeling that it is some sort of signal with something bigger that is wrong with me... but after the hernia situation a month ago, I'm not too keen on going to the doctor...
plus.. just got back from the gym.. and i'm embarrassed to say it's been a bit since I've been there...after trent i sort of freaked out about being alone... and then started working out again this summer and beginning of this year... but i trailed off... I really forgot how much going to the gym makes ME happy... i'm searching for all of those things again

emotionally: the whole mike thing... is REALLY started to make me want to shoot myself in the head. We didn't really start off on the right foot...any of the times we've tried to be together... I think I'm just to the point at which I put it all in his hands and just roll with whatever that means.
aaaaand... I miss my little brothers and EVEN my sister... kinda weird how close we all got.


I'm really just exhausted...but working out has put me in a better mood for the day...thankfully


ps.. i fuckin love my phone.

-danny