Basically, Practically, Intense

Reach for the moon my sparkling boy,
and bring me back a star.

I miss my brother, no one really knows how much me means to me, and how much it hurts to not be allowed to see him. He was my world, the only reason I was able to make it through my days. I hope when he is old enough, he will wish to see me, speak with me, and still love me.... and the fact that I have to worry about that, makes me want to cry.

*sigh* Ok, I'm done with the depressing....

Today is my new sister's birthday. She turned 17. She cried this morning, and although I can sympathize with her on trivial obscurities.. I do not really feel bad for her at all. That probably sounds horrible. But now that I get to live somewhat of what she has been living, I think I am angry with her. Her family is perfect, and I don't see how she could have the audacity to complain. Never the less, it is her birthday, and she is a great girl. A beautiful, smart, amazing girl who never ceases to amaze me.

My AIM has a virus, and I cannot for the life of me delete it. I keep trying, in vain, but nothing is working. If I send you anything, don't open it... its just some fucking virus that I recieved from Sarah Langlois.

Relationship status: Do I ever really know?... no I don't. I am basically in one right now, but I'm not sure what exactly it is. That tends to be a sucky feeling, but I really enjoy seeing the person as much as I can.... so I do not want to try and ruin what we have with the infamous "what are we" line. Even though it would be nice to know. I go through random phases of thinking it could be something great, and perfect, and wonderful, mixed with total and utter happiness.... but then I slap myself across the face and make sure I realize that I am not what they want...

I don't really think I am what anyone wants. (I refer you to the last post, at the bottom: I am not beautiful on the inside)

School is almost over... heck yes.... heck.. YES!! And I am hoping to have a blast this summer... with all of my friends (the ones who haven't deserted me (so basically not the homo-be-straights))
I should be spending a lot of time working, but I will have plenty of time for all of the people that matter.

There is a dragon on the computer desk... yeah man, a dragon.
The word man belongs to a friend of mine.


Daniel James