Wow it's been a long time.... and I am not sure my life is even worth writing about.. but I figure it might make me feel better.
I read up on my last posts... and since then
- I stopped living at my ex-girlfriends house
- I have a boyfriend
- I live with him
- My family still deserves nothing but horrible things
- My best friend is Kristin Heesen (still)
- We went to Ohio for Spring Break
- I got a second job at Coldwell Banker
- I got accepted to Seattle University
- I will be going
It is Easter Sunday and I am all alone. It's difficult to deal with the fact that I am alone. I did nothing to these people. My mother deserves nothing but bad things in life.... she will get what is coming to her... because that is how things have to work.
The other day... Kristin, John, Lauren, and myself decided to go to my mother's house and watch SNL. My mother is away in Arizona.. but my sister is staying at the house so that she can smoke as much pot as physically possible..... Well while we are silently watching the television, it decides to blow.. my sister then blames it on me, calls my mother and tells her I am having a huge drinking party... and then just get this bitchy look on her face.
My mother talks to me on the phone, trys to make me think that I'm going to have to pay for this T.V. (bitch, please)... and then tells me to get my shit and get the fuck out of her house....
Why do I try anymore?........
I don't feel cute anymore... and I miss the independent feeling of single life. I miss the spark of meeting someone new, that lightning first kiss.... the excitement of not being able to keep your hands off of each other.. I have been with John since July 21st... that's a long time... there are times when I just don't know what I'm doing.
I think I'll keep writing in here... and keep it a secret... it can be just for me.
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