I hold in my hand

a flower star
which I plucked from the garden sky
with the intention of sharing it with you..............



I'm in a thoughtful mood.
no, I'm tired.

I'm tired of this...of this day to day bullshit... something is missing, and i just cant put my FUCKING finger on it..... at times, it pisses me off.

I lay here, watch T.V. , and just think...
and thinking is highly overrated... I don't know what I'm thinking... there are so many things that are running through my head....I think about Seattle, I think about work, I think about myself.., I think about sex.... and everything and everyone that comes with it...

I want to get to Seattle... I just want to effing get there... I'm tired of bringing drama wherever I go.... why can't people just NOT talk about me...I mean... seriously, chill the fuck out... I don't know what I'm going to do to prevent it from following me to school in the fall, but I'll figure it out.

Everyone in this area knows EVERYONE... wtf.... I do NOT want to have sex with you people.. I don't find it attractive that you're all TRASH .. you all are NOT as attractive as you think you are... ew, effing sick.... I need to get the hell out of Wisconsin

I am going to miss very few people... am I cold hearted? yeah.. get the hell over it

GAH! I hate homos... all of you stupid queeny boys... leave me the fuck alone... I have dealt with PLENTY of super homo queens.. trust me.., if I wanted that, I would still be with it.... you don't have a CHANCE IN HELL.... so give it up

I want dark hair... I just buzzed my hair... and I wanted to dye it dark, but I caved and stayed blonde again.... BOO!

this place is nice... things are fine I guess... John is perfect

I want another tattoo really bad...I'll get it before I leave


I pulled this flower star from the garden sky
and now I place it in your hands...........