I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar....

Than be broken by a lover I don't understand.....
'cause I don't understand..

you know i've been unfaithful
with lovers in lines
while you're turning over tables
with the rage of a jealous kind


I went to see John last night... and it was utterly amazing in every form of the word. I forgot how much I missed him, and how much I love being with him. I forgot how beautiful he was.

We watched hockey (our team lost... sucks)... and talked about everything.... It seems he knows some new guy who keeps asking him rather suspicious questions... and if my assumption is correct... it's really funny. ha.

Then we went to bed... and watched some south park and whatnot... and we had been in his room for about an hour when the police knocked on his door... random?
Well John comes back from talking to the officer, and pulls a shotgun out from under his bed and loads it... why?.... because the officer told him that some guy had been snooping around outside of his house, trying to look into the windows... WTF!!?
I have my own assumptions as to who it is, based on some other information we talked about... and if it's true.... it's not only funny, but this person is more fucked up than I thought.. haha.

Then we talked for a while longer, and he fell asleep in my arms... beautifulness. :)

*almost forgot.... Rau called me last night in her man voice... and it was amazing*

I had an amazing night... with an amazing person, and I can't wait to go back.

mood? SUPER PSYCHED!